Arguably the hardest year of my life will begin in 9 days. First year of medical school—it feels weird writing it. This has been what I’ve been going after for the past 7 years, and it all seems to have happened in the blink of an eye.
The feeling I have is a strange one. I’ve achieved a huge life goal of mine, and the sense of accomplishment is great; but at the same time I have this sense of uncertainty about what lies ahead in this next year. I have my doubts, but this is normal and somewhat useful for me. I’m a bit scared of the uncertainty, but there is beauty in the mysterious. The joy, the excitement, the anxiety, the fear all mix together into this strange guttural feeling… BUT these are simply superficial.
Today I volunteered at the Jackson Free Clinic, and after seeing the first patient, all of my previous feelings towards school melted away and were replaced by the joy of knowing that I’m where I belong. Happiness vibrates at our core.
The past week that I’ve been full-time in Jackson, I have spent relaxing, meeting people, and just preparing myself mentally for first year. It did not take any time at all to get used to living alone—I love it. I go out and meet people and hang out, but when I come home, I come home to my house- my space. Jackson is pretty great city so far. I like the number of people a lot. I feel comfortable among the crowds.
As I said, my summer has been one of relaxing. At the beginning I stayed around Lucedale with my family there because I know that I won’t have many opportunities to spend quality family time with them this year. In July, I drove with Bryan Estill and Reese Lott down to the Florida Keys, specifically Islamorada. It was a trip that was simple and well worth it. I really enjoy driving, and this trip delivered on the driving part. A great trip with great friends.
Life is hurtling forward, and I’ve never felt better.
